没有所谓的百分百，不要害怕犯错。

不知道是不是最近把自己盯得太紧，很多身外物都顾不着。
一直严厉的鞭策自己的行为品德，忽略了其他东西。
这也不是我丢失我的电话的借口。

一直想着活动，把很多事都搁一边。
心情不好还是去处理事情，处理到了却丢失了自己的电话。
不知道那时的想哭其实是要暗示我不要出去的，却硬着头皮出去做。
结果好啦，现在真的可以放声大哭啦！

很不好意思的吓到我的室友啦~
我真的憋着的，你的表情动作加语调让我漏气了~
直接放声大哭，一发不能收拾。
不要慌啦，哭了就要让我哭完，哭完就没事啦~
哭是因为已经接受事实，承认自己的错，那就会鞭策自己，改变。


哭泣不是因为受委屈，是因为自责，责任感作祟。
觉得对不起自己，对不起电话，对不起老爸。
怎么可以又犯了，怎么可以还像小孩子一样？
记得有人说过，十年了，事情会再次发生，如果你多加注意，那就可以预防它再次发生。
很明显，我还是让它发生了。第二次弄丢电话。
几岁人了，还那么糊涂，怎么靠自己，怎么让父母放心？

发现自己最近越来越不注意小事，很多平时会做的事，要做事时竟然忘记了自己会怎么做。
平时会注意的安全，好像越来越不小心。
怎么会这样？难道我就不能学习新东西之时，保持现状吗？
还是我太投入了，忘记分配时间给我自己的心理，自己的生理。

知道现在很忙，我还是和我的老板请了两天假。
觉得再忽落这问题，我会越来越糟糕，即使心理，和活动搞好了，自己的生理和生活习惯会一塌糊涂。
尽量在这两天调理自己的心情和生活习惯。
好好分配自己的时间，好好的照顾自己。
丢三落四不是我的特性，小心身边的东西，时时保持警惕自身安全。
不要乱乱放心，不要为了做一件事，落了在身边的很多东西。

今天我捡回自己的身份证是因为幸运，遗失是对自己的失责。
弄丢了电话，再发现弄丢了文件，再下去，自己都会弄丢自己的特性。
文件可以在找回，特性弄丢了，就会变成不是我，找回自己不容易了。
看见会变成自己不想变的人，难道不阻止它发生吗？

我想，我学会了特性的重要性，不能100%放在一个地方。
记得有人说过，难道你就不能那么偏激吗？
不要求一百分不会死，不要只追求一个方向的顶端。
世界很大，很多东西事情关系需要被照顾，要求平衡。
平衡很难，那也是从生活中学习。过来人，我现在听你的话，平衡它们。
老天让我遇见你们是天意，感谢天意，也感谢自己清醒了。

部落格也算一种自我检讨？
那我更应该把我做的错事，一一写下来，自我检讨。
希望我不会再犯同样的错，我会尽最大的努力保护我能保护的，提升我能提升的。
相信人类的大脑拥有无限量的潜能是不变定律。
只要相信，不管多辛苦，终究会成功的。
只要相信自己能，加油！不要被生活打败！活出自我。

你犯错了？ 没关系，承认错误，然后改变，这就是人生。
借安真姐的话，“不要怕！”

时间到了

人不能停在原点，不管什么，不要觉得我一直以来都是这样的。
你会看见大家都在往前走，而你要觉悟，不是一昧的跟着人家走，是往自己的目标走。
其实，生活中本来就会有许多东西让你学习和觉悟。

有些东西，过去了，再心痛，也要放下。
有些东西，再怎么去避免，怎么去忽略，问题还是要解决的。
有些东西，发生了才会成长，而我看到了很多。
仿佛做每个动作会带来的后果都会马上浮现在脑海里。

学会了，不去忽略，而是用那个时间，告诉自己，那是事实。
用时间让自己接受，接受了才能改变不是吗？
期间会有多少次恶魔的声音要自己放弃，要自己堕落；
能做的是告诉它，这是我的，你也是我的，是我控制你，不是让你控制我。
再输入一些正能量，把理智稳住，继续努力。

我不想停在原点，我也不能停在原点。
偶尔的一句话，仿佛提醒我，
你老大不小了，不可以在小孩子气了。
你今年就要22岁了，活得像个成人吧。
不要在等了，去实现你的梦想吧，去计划你的未来吧。
一个人，两个人，一群人，我也要去履行我对自己的承诺。
人太保守，一直守着存钱，到了晚年才发现自己的梦想已不能实现了；这，绝对不是我想要的。旅行，一年一次，不管是一个人，两个人，都要去履行！

很多时候，引擎还没发动，会觉得自己对那些东西一窍不通。
“我不懂的嘞，你要不要告诉我，你直接吩咐我做就好，我不会啦~”
原来，我情愿做机械人，也不愿意用脑。
引擎慢慢热起来，开始有了方向，开始主动，开始追逐，开始积极。
没有了机械人的压力，反而活得自在，做得更起劲，更自信。
原来，我只缺乏启动引擎的力量 - 时间和提醒。

很多时候，我的先放着，等我解决了这件事再做的事情都会不了了之。
现在，我的放着，只是不去处理，可每天起来，它都会自动在我脑海里出现，告诉我“我等着你解决呢！” ，一直都在提醒我。
而我只能说：“你不是最急的，我很忙，不要来影响我的进度，不然两头不到岸，你也是解决不了的。”
所有的情绪完全被抛弃，只想专心的一样一样解决。
才发现我不能一心二用，我只能选择理性，大小姐，我很忙，不要跟我耍大小姐脾气。
什么伤心难过都被我狠狠地甩在地上。

时间到了，我必须往前走，不管你愿不愿意。
时间到了，我必须放下，放不下也得放下。
时间到了，我必须为自己负责任，老大不小了。
时间到了，我必须完成我的使命，不然就对不起自己了。
时间到了，我必须脱涌而出了，不是蝴蝶就是死亡。

当然，时间到了，我要做功课了。
时间到了，态度就要改变。

读书啦！不进则退！jiayoula

23/01/2013

It just a Normal day for my uni life. (Caution : You Might BORED for it !)

But this week is just show something weird to myself.
I can't expect the time for UTAR bus arrived PV and I already went to school by taxi for 3 days...
How terrible for it !!! I just can't let it happen 1 more time again... my pocket is hurt and telling me I'm doing wrong thing !!! Please don't touch your laptop and lay on the bed more than 10 minutes...!!!
I will correct my terrible mistake !!!

Let's move on today~
Well, obviously I'm late for 5 mins to come out and I missed the bus.Then I go for cab and reached school...
Canteen was full with people, a lot more than yesterday. I don't did I missed anyone, but I really so faint about the people. I bought the bread and walked away for canteen. I was totally no idea about where should I go except canteen, then I walk to SE block. While I'm walking on the corridor, I saw every classes is having their class, more or less, there will be a tutor or lecturer teaching, mostly for engineering students. I didn't any familiar friend around the area, I keep walking and go down to ground floor and find a place I can having my brunch.
Then I saw a couple walking near, is my friends. Feel so comfort when I saw them.Next is saw my 'sampat' friends, and start my normal uni life.

We go in the SQC class and listen for 2 hours,erm..... Actually I didn't , I just listen sometime and hear sometime, my brain was just auto-filtered out somethings and happened the hearing case...xD
I felt like the time is moving too slow, I thought 1 hour is passed, but yet only 45 mins gone... >.<
Start chit-chat v my 'sampat' friend again.... Suddenly Oren said that, "Why you so unfair to me? You contrapose to me and partiality to KM.. And I am jealous on him !!!.." hahahahaha, I just keep on laughing and KM ask me what happen, I repeat the sentences oren said, KM started doing 'sampat' thing and said "because I'm cute !!! pika pika pikacau~~~ (with the hands beside the cheeks)" I'm laugh at beginning and stopped him when he kept repeating with louder voice...OMG! I can't believe he did it in class !!! such a CRAZY man !!!
After that he still kept asking a lot of the IQ questions....(-.-)

Finally class ended, and I had to wait for 2 hours and get in to the IF class.
I been forced to follow them until FGO to take their student discount card.
I saw my roomate was queue up and make her surprise of me... She was been scared and beat me...haha...
Something more interesting is KM say "Hi, Long Time No See !" My roomate was just burning her mind to remind back who he is, but yet my roomate really never see him !!! Was the first meet !!! and I asked my roomate to ignore him...

More, I go to canteen meet my dears (yumie and gigi) and wait for my next class...
After SS ,HS and THuey came, we discussed about the soft skills...what to attend ? Dance !!!  :P
Time is flying when we chit-chat... Is time to go for class...
for the IF class, I guess is the most focus class for me, with some disturbing jokes by SS...
Even though I can't pick the point fast but I understood the notes by some helps too....

And I skipped the AT2013 meeting for today.
Why? because I'm no the one can give much suggestions or brave to take the power to assign or doing something... I'm just a backup and feel so useless for the meeting.. for today only~ I really can't help much as I'm trying to help and trying to get in the conditions.... (Yes, I'm no enough self-confident for doing event. I'm just scare if I make it fail....hold on, I will be better.I know!)

KM offer to fetch me and HS back hostel.
and I have a date with my roomate and her coursemates, for dinner and movie...
A nice day ,especially tomorrow is a Holiday !!! xD
This give me an opportunity to update my blog...

I love school life because it let me gather with my friend, study and have fun with them.
School life will going to end, and my turning point gonna burnt me out, but I will keep on fighting.
Life go on, I will never give up my life....
After 30 years, we really still can meet or gathering again? I really hope so !!!
perhaps, we will gather once a year... It so hard to meet crazy, patient, lovely and cute friends.... most important thing is 互相体谅，鼓励，了解。can be say is 心有灵犀一点通~

Study Smart and Play Hard !!!! (I wish I can achieve this level... haha)
have a nice public holiday~!

又开学了 _Y3S3

真的，写部落格，很靠心情。
现在的我，写不出很理智的辩论。
想完成之前的草拟，有点困难。
心情不好啊~ 介意人家对我的看法，也不是一件好事。
做自己，你看见的，或许只是冰山一角。
都说了，一个人，可能花一辈子的时间都没办法了解自己，更何况是别人。

我看见的也是他的冰山一角。我承认，我一开始对他很抗拒，因为我不还没了解他之前，就闹绯闻了。但如我所说，会对他改变看法，做朋友的，从来不嫌多。

很庆幸的，没什么人看穿我，证明那是一道很厚的城墙。
有些人，可能又要念我了，因为知道那道墙会阻挡很多可以让我依靠的人。
但是我不想太依赖人，依赖了就习惯，就很难改。
我曾用一年的时间，来遗忘对一个人的依赖，那伤疤有时还会隐隐作痛。
放肆自己很容易，可是覆水难收，感情收不回来。
不过，我还是很庆幸，因为我曾喜欢过人。

回想，其实我也是拥有很白痴的中学时代。
一群人一起玩，虽然最后都各自散去，起码我们曾一起度过。
被伤害了，竟然白痴到在学校哭到比花面猫还要丑。为什么不记得，只记得哭得很凄凉。
一进中学，就被学长当白痴的耍，庆幸的我把持住了，没有接受他~(因为我只是他们的打赌）
曾因为不知道自己已犯错，被叫到训导处，还和纪律老师辩论，当然还是被打啦~
然后，做了更白痴的事，说不出来啊！太太太太.....白痴了~
当然，还有很白痴的不知道有人喜欢我。我真的以为是好朋友嘛~
之后认识到比较不错的朋友，主动出击，做了很好的朋友，直到现在。
记得那在单车棚，一起做的手势，几乎每天一起回家。
还有，记得有一年，在我生日的那一周，她整个礼拜都没上课，没联络，担心死我了。
最后才知道，原来她的亲人去世了，打电话给她母亲的手机才找到她。
社团的事，又被当挡箭牌摆上台，经千刀万剐，明白友情也不过如此。

那么白痴过了，还不学乖吗？ 被误会好，当强势的人也好，不再白痴的被伤害就好。
人与人之间，如果信任没了，还有什么友情可言。
我单刀直入，不想给人家有遐想的机会，朋友就朋友，不喜欢卷入是非的感觉。
喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。不要假假的东西。一就一，二就二。

又开学了，又可以跟朋友混在一起，度过她们的最后一个学期。
在那之后，我就要靠自己奋斗了。所以这个学期，一定要彻底的疯起来！
似疯了般读书，似疯了般嬉戏，似疯了般度过这学期。
加油！加油加油！ 奋斗啊！
要和说话不用脑的朋友一起度过啦~ 废废废 也要废在一起~
开学万岁！上课万岁！新年万岁！考试万岁！然后毕业万岁！

Break for training report? I don't want !!!!

Just a Day I want to write down my feeling of this holiday...
For all having internship before or last semester, we know holiday is no much for us, there is still a final report n presentation wait for us...
This short break, really short, less than 2 week and within this 2 week we have to write a report n prepare for our presentation... It really a break? Or a time for us to do report? -.-
It been 3 months for me to forgot the UTAR lifestyle , I guess if I m AiA underwriter, I won't give UTAR student lifestyle discount, because we are not having a normal lifestyle, we do burn our midnight oil for the assignment, test, exam and now is for report... @.@
I no put all my time for report but I do think about it all the times... I had spend some times for normal lifestyle, watch tv shows with family, eat and hang out with family.
Today, I went shopping with my mom and brother... Normally is purpose for my mom to buy her and my dad CNY cloths... Always is bought a lot for father and my mom still so kedekut to herself. I just found, I m out of the way to picking cloth for my father...my style feeling like back to lala girl again...@.@
I like some colors that no suit my father or not the color my mom like. She don't like the design I pick...>.<
I have suggest some cloth to my mom also... With different design, she can pick some cloth that she really want and like... But she mostly like the cloth that she can eat a lot and still can't see her perut... Oppppssss!!!! Keep fit is been ignore... Come on, keep fit v me, more healthy and sexy mah... LoL ...
I also bought 2 colorful t-shirt to suit my red and green pant...@.@
Yes, the new year cloth still only this 2 pair only... Might wish for this Friday I free to go shopping before the RCC happen on Saturday again laaaaa...
After shopping, my brother suggest to have dinner at the famous tomyam mee there. Because my brother and mom never go there due to a lot of ppl and my dad won't like it...
Finally they ate it today...
Ehemmmmm.... Now is too late for me to sleep n wake up early....
Good night and wish I can finish my report by tmr...

201314 - 爱你一生一世 mean love you forever

Do you say I love you to your beloved?
Say it today only or say it everyday?
Do it or only say it?
have a Chinese sentence “心动不如行动” acting on your dream. Make your dream come true better than just dream it... Do say I Love You to your beloved now.....

有多少人真的把爱付诸行动。
有多少人把爱付诸行动之后，人家还是感觉不到。

爱没有方程式，爱没有一定的定律。
一个人爱你不一定会用你理解的方式去爱你，一个人用尽生命去爱某人，如果某人体会不了，那爱的的行动还是付诸流水。

多少人，栽在一个爱字里透。
多少人，怎么都无法理解爱。
多少人，因为爱而感到幸福。

爱你一生一世。
要是可以爱一生一世，那是幸福的。
有伴的，请珍惜那牵着你走过风雨的人。
没伴的，不要急着牵手；手一牵，爱就是两个人的责任，互相体谅就是必要。

现在，我确定爱我一生一世的是我的父母。
他们生我育我，或许不能给予你想要的所有，但他们尽力的给予我们最好的。
每个人的教育方式，通常是被自己的成长环境，过程影响。
没有人是完美的，但那已是他能给的不完美的最完美。
而我，感谢我父母的爱。或许读书少，不懂很多课本的知识，但是懂得的人生道理，是从他们的人生领悟出来的。

我也会给予他们最大的回报-爱。（尽力的给予他们想要的，希望的）
我的力量或许没有他们伟大，偶尔会撒娇，闹脾气。
可是爱是从来不会被否认的。因为爱，所以吵架一定会哭泣，哭到累倒睡着。
因为爱，所以在意。因为爱，所以不想让他们失望。

没错，西方教育和东方教育有很大的差异。
西方要求自立，自由。东方要求孝顺，责任。或许责任本身就是一种约束。
但被约束也不会很糟糕，有要求才会有进步。
很多时候，很多不能用言语去解释，不能用理智去对抗。
勇敢一些，放下担忧，提起责任。
幸福就在不远处。

有些人，我们不能爱一世，但努力爱过，尽力把爱展升到尽头，就无悔了。
或许无缘，但谢谢你让我爱你。

无论有缘无缘，谢谢你们的出现，造就现在的我，一句我爱你代表我的感激，代表我对你们的珍惜。请在接下来的路上，更爱自己。

Welcome to 2013

HaPpY New Year Everyone~~~~~!!!!!

HaPpY 2013 !!!!

This year gonna be Great year for me , for you, for everyone !!!

This year, hehe... I have a lot of new wishes~~~ :P

1st Wish :

My family , my friends and me all stay in healthy, lovely, charming life...

For 1st, sure is have a healthy body to do all stuff that we want to do ~!!!!

So, let's wish for health...!!! no only physical but mentally also !!!  <3

2nd Wish :

All the BEST in study !!!

I will try my best and hardworking all the time, just for YOU !!!!

Hope that I can finished my study in this year end...

Sure, I will wish for my friends to finish their study in their expect time as well...

All the Best , and Good Luck.....

3rd Wish : 

It is related to 1st wish, is getting healthy...

I have promised to my dear, Catrina Chin Chin, to keep fit together with her...

For Our Health, Cheer !!! and loss weight success!!!!!

I gonna do exercise everyday at least 1 hour for it~!!!

term and condition is no matter having exam or test or assignment, it just a compulsory to my life, such as sleeping...

as what I saw last time in FB ,时间就像乳沟，挤一挤就有。

Dear, GamBateH together ya ~~~ !!!! <3

4th Wish :

Travel Travel Travel....

The only gift and present to myself for the hardworking of every semester~

Hope that the Phuket Trip can be done and go for it....

For our last gathering before you all graduate from UTAR !!!

Is so hard to let us meet and know each other together that from different city...

and now we gonna celebrate our friendship with travel together...!!!!

Go Go Travel !!! Go Go Take Photo !!!! <3

5th Wish :

I will be handle my friendship with all my friends....

keep it smooth and steady...

Stay charming, lovely, happiness in our memories....

When you think about me, there is some funny, happy memories...

In your life, there is a 38, cute and siao cha po to accompany your studies life, your young memory...

So, please stay 38 with me, because this called 青春~

Do remember 青春不留白！

Do make life cheer , make life colorful ~!!! <3

6th Wish :

I will and I can go for my eldest brother wedding dinner...!!!

no only dinner... But WHOLE wedding process.... I wish and hope to be there, prove his love, see the turning point of his life.... I wish to be there, to wish and share the happiness of them...

I'm so glad to be his sister forever, and love them forever~

Brother !!! sister-in-law ~!!!! I want to be there !!!! see the most happiness of your life !!!!

oh ~~~!!!! Can't wait for that day !!! I hope I can help you in the wedding as well ~

I'm too excited of it... !!! argghhhhhh !!!! xD

hehe.... there is end already...

Don't you feel, I might miss out something that everyone is asking me....

BOY FRIEND !!! hahahahahahahahahaha

This year, It is no in my wishes list, why?

I hope it to be surprise for me... no by force , but by 缘分...

Sorry for delay it again..... hahahahahahahahahahaha

but HEALTHY 1st , STUDY SECONDS , FAMILY/FRIEND-SHIP THIRD .... and BOY FRIEND....

hahahhahahahahahahahahaha.... 从来不强求，不是我的就不是我的。

Maybe my thinking on BOY FRIEND LOVE already old like 30 years old.... hahahahahahahaha...

BOY FRIEND? 等上天的恩赐吧~ xD

HaPpY New YeaR !!! 2013 , I＇ｍ　ｃｏｍｉｎｇ　！！！